4
I was cool, calm,
and collected. For about three and a half seconds. Then I closed in
on Madeline.
“How do you know
Dan?â€
She slanted me a
look. “Is that more than professional curiosity I hear in your
voice?â€
I wasn’t about to
confess my very personal interest in Dan. Not this early in the
conversation. And not to this particular spook. I raised my chin,
but since I was about a foot taller than Madeline to begin with,
this didn’t exactly have the imposing effect I was hoping for. I
had to look down again to look her in the eye.
“Dan wants to
study my brain,†I told her. “And my aberrant behavior. He
recorded the EVP that helped solve my last case. I can be plenty
curious. Dan and me, we’ve got history.â€
“Is that all you
have?â€
It took me a second
to figure out what she was getting at. “No way!†I didn’t so
much wave away the very idea with one cashmere-enshrouded hand as I
dismissed the subject as none of Madeline’s business. “You
can’t be serious. Dan and I have never—â€
“But it’s not
like you don’t want to.â€
Did I?
OK, Dan was cute. He
was more than cute. Dan was sexy. In a dorky sort of way. It never
ceased to amaze me that I thought of him that way, since dorks have
never been my thing and geeky scientists aren’t exactly on the
top of my list when it comes to guys I want to get up close and
personal with.
Like I’d been up
close and personal with Quinn.
The thought brought
me up short, and I curled my hands into fists and held my arms
close to my sides, keeping my secrets as carefully as I chose my
words. This was not the time. And Madeline was not the person who
needed to hear any of this.
I deflected her
question with one of my own. “How do you know Dan?†I asked her
again.
She expected more in
the way of me owning up to Dan’s deliciousness. When she didn’t
get it, her eyes narrowed. “I worked with him,†she said.
“Here in Chicago. At the Gerard Clinic.â€
“Dan worked in
Chicago?â€
“Ah, something
else you didn’t know.†Madeline’s smile was sleek. “Looks
like the great detective needs a little help now and then after
all. Danny . . .†Though it wasn’t mussed or rumpled, she
smoothed a hand over her lab coat. “He was a graduate student at
Northwestern at the time. He was completing his dissertation and
working with Doctor Hilton Gerard.†She paused, waiting for me to
respond, and when I didn’t, Madeline shook her head sadly.
“You’ve never heard of Doctor Gerard, have you?â€
“I’ve heard of
Doctor Doolittle. And Doctor Who. Is this Doctor Gerard guy related
to either of them?â€
“Ah yes, hiding
your inadequacies behind jokes that aren’t funny.†Madeline
seemed to make a mental note of this before she turned her
attention back to our conversation. “Hilton Gerard is one of the
most distinguished psychiatrists in the country. He runs the Gerard
Clinic.â€
“Where Dan used to
work.â€
“I worked there,
too.†This was obviously a matter of some pride to Madeline. Her
chin came up. Her eyes sparkled as much as a dead person’s can.
“I was Hilton’s chief research assistant.â€
“Which explains
how you knew Dan.â€
This was not the
gushy response she was expecting. I knew this when she pouted. On
Madeline, it was not a pretty expression. “I conducted all
Hilton’s clinical studies,†she said, in answer to the
questions I was supposed to ask but didn’t. “I interviewed and
selected our test subjects, and I was in charge of collecting,
compiling, and synthesizing our research data. The day-to-day
operations of the clinic, that’s Hilton’s bailiwick. So are the
grant proposals. And the fundraising . . . well, nobody can get the
city’s movers and shakers to open their wallets the way Hilton
can. He’s a genius.â€
“And he knows
Dan.â€
Madeline let go of
an annoyed sigh. I couldn’t help but notice that when she did,
there was no puff of cloudy air around her mouth. “Yes, Hilton
knows Danny. That’s the problem, don’t you see?â€
“Kind of hard to
see something when you’re not making anything clear.†My
fingers were numb; I shoved my hands in my pockets. “You want to
explain what a job Dan had in grad school has to do with him being
in trouble now?â€
“I would. If
you’d stop jabbering.†Madeline stepped away from her grave.
While she collected her thoughts, she paced back and forth, and
when she was finally ready to speak, she stopped directly in front
of me. “Three years ago, I left the clinic late one night and I
got mugged. The mugger panicked when I didn’t produce my wallet
as quickly as he would have liked. He shot me. I died in the alley
outside the clinic’s back door.â€
“No way Dan had
anything to do with that.â€
Madeline’s eyes
glistened. “So, though you pretend you’re not interested in a
personal sort of way, you do think highly enough of Danny to know
he’d never do anything wrong. From a psychological standpoint,
that’s very interesting. You try not to reveal your true
emotions, but—â€
“Get back on
track, will you, before I shoot you myself.â€
Madeline got the
message. “Danny wasn’t involved in my murder. You’re correct
in thinking that. He wasn’t even at the clinic that night, though
he was supposed to be. He had some statistics to tabulate and a few
reports he should have been going over. But—â€
“But he wasn’t
there and that’s why you were alone and that’s how you got
mugged. Now you’re pissed and you want justice.†I’d heard
this song and dance before, or at least ones similar to it. It
didn’t take more than a nanosecond for me to make up my mind.
“If Dan wasn’t there when he was supposed to be, then he must
have had a good reason. So, nice try, but I’m not going to help
you get your revenge from beyond the grave. Not against
Dan.â€
“You’re
defending him. Even though you don’t know the whole story. I like
that!†Madeline smiled. When a skeleton finger of sun poked
through the clouds, her eyes glittered. “That’s nice. It proves
you have feelings for him.†Before I could respond with a lie,
she went on. “Good thing I’m not asking for
revenge.â€
“Not against Dan.
OK, I get that since it wasn’t his fault. But how about against
the guy who shot you?â€
The sun ducked back
behind the clouds and Madeline’s face was thrown into shadow.
“The man who killed me . . . John Wilson . . .he was one of our
clients and mentally unstable, poor soul. There’s nothing to be
gained from wanting revenge against him. When he snapped out of the
dissociative state he was in when he shot me and realized what
he’d done, the guilt was too much for him to bear. He took an
overdose. He’s been dead nearly as long as I
have.â€
“So you’re not
mad at Dan. And you’re not mad at this John guy. But you want my
help anyway. Why?â€
“Like I said,
it’s all because of Danny.â€
It was a sound bite,
not an explanation. I stepped back, my arms crossed over my chest
and my hands tucked under my arms and close to my body in a futile
effort to generate some heat.
Madeline didn’t
have to worry about trying to maintain 98.6; she could afford to
take her time. While I shifted from foot to foot and stamped my
feet, she eased into her explanation.
“You know Danny is
brilliant. I mean, you must. Anyone who meets him instantly knows
he’s unique. I knew it, too, as soon as Doctor Gerard introduced
us. Once I started working with Danny . . . well, it didn’t take
me long to realize that in addition to his razor-sharp mind, he has
something a lot of scientists lack—a special spark of creativity.
Sure, he has an encyclopedic knowledge of psychology and
biochemistry, but he can take that knowledge and combine it with
experience and... well, it’s hard to explain to a layperson, but
his results are always surprising. He has a way of looking at old
information in new ways. That’s something special.†Madeline
raised her chin.
“I admired
Danny’s methods and his thought processes. I appreciated the fact
that though I was his superior, he was open to asking for my
advice. Many men won’t do that, you know. Especially when it
comes to research. Not when they’re working with women who are
more professionally and academically advanced and—†If I
didn’t know better, I would have said her smile was sweet.
“Well, I guess you’ve probably never been in that position,
have you?â€
The smile I shot
back was just as sugary. “You sound like you’re writing Dan’s
retirement speech.â€
“I just want to be
sure you understand. Danny was a real asset to the clinic. He
was—â€
“Terrific. Yeah, I
get it. Dan was terrific, this Doctor Gerard guy is perfection, and
you were the ace number one go-to person who kept the place running
like clockwork. So?â€
“So, even after
Danny left Chicago, he kept in touch with Doctor Gerard. They’re
working together now on a special study.â€
A single snowflake
drifted in front of my eyes, and the heavy clouds above us promised
more. If I stood there much longer, I’d harden up and be mistaken
for one of the statues. Like a bewildered spectator trying to
decipher an especially baffling charade, I urged Madeline on with a
wave of both hands. “And this study . . .â€
She
hesitated.
I
grumbled.
Madeline drummed her
fingers against her chin. “I hate to say anything denigrating
against Doctor Gerard,†she said. “He’s a great man. A
brilliant man. Without him and the Gerard Clinic, thousands of the
indigent would never have adequate mental health care. It’s just
. . .†She drew in a breath. Without taking in any air, of
course. “Some of Doctor Gerard’s business practices aren’t
exactly on the up-and-up.â€
“And you know
this, how?â€
She shrugged.
“Like I said, I was his research assistant. His right-hand man,
so to speak. After taking a look at the clinic’s operating budget
and balancing it against what I knew we were bringing in with our
fundraising efforts . . . well, I had my suspicions. Of course I
dismissed them as flights of fancy. Doctor Gerard wouldn’t . . .
He couldn’t . . . But then I found out it was true. Doctor Gerard
was . . . he is—â€
“A
crook.â€
Madeline made a
face. “You make it sound so tawdry. And Doctor Gerard is anything
but. He’s a wonderful, warm individual. And a great humanitarian.
He’s from old money, you know. His father and his grandfather and
his great-grandfather, they were all distinguished psychiatrists,
too. Back in the late 1800s, his great-grandfather founded the
Gerard Hospital for the Insane and Mentally Feeble up near
Winnetka. The name of the hospital makes it sound so incredibly
antiquated and cruel, but back then, the place was cutting-edge and
the therapies they used were humane and helpful. That Doctor Gerard
. . . well, everyone who knows anything about psychiatry knows
about his work.â€
Ancient history. It
was getting us nowhere, and nowhere meant we’d never get through
this and get inside someplace where it was warm. I wouldn’t have
had to point this out if she wasn’t dead and oblivious to the
cold. Instead, I pinned her with a look that told her to get a move
on.
Thinking, Madeline
chafed her hands together. “Hilton never would have done what he
did if I was still around. Like I said, I made sure the clinic
was—â€
“Shipshape. Yeah,
I know.â€
She didn’t
appreciate the interruption so she pretended it hadn’t happened.
“He also never would have gotten involved in what he’s involved
in if he didn’t give so much of his own personal fortune to the
clinic to make sure it stayed solvent. Government funding cuts, you
know, and Hilton, he can’t bear to see his patients suffer
because of ridiculous government bureaucracy. He—â€
“He cooked the
books. Is that what you’re trying to tell me?â€
Madeline blinked
rapidly. “He knew it was the only way, and then...well, like I
said, I wasn’t around and... and then things got out of
hand.â€
“How out of
hand?â€
I doubt if ghosts
can blush, but I swear her cheeks got dusky. “There’s the house
in the Bahamas,†she said. “And the offshore accounts. Hilton
isn’t flamboyant, but he does appreciate the finer things in
life. Clothes, cars, food, wine. I mean, it’s just about
impossible to hold any of it against him. If he’s going to
convince the city’s elite to support the clinic, he needs to
mingle with them. And if he’s going to mingle with them, he needs
to live like one of them. Besides, a man in his position has a
great deal of stress and he deserves the little luxuries of
life.â€
“Some people
wouldn’t consider a house in the Bahamas a little
luxury.â€
“Of course not.
Please don’t get me wrong.†Madeline’s voice was almost
pleading. “I don’t want you to think badly of Hilton. That’s
not why I’m telling you any of this. He’s misguided, that’s
all. And the quality of patient care at the clinic hasn’t
deteriorated in the least because of what he’s doing. I know this
for certain. I go over there now and again just to reassure myself.
I’ve told myself that as long as the clinic is running
efficiently and patients aren’t affected, it’s really none of
my business, but—â€
“But you’re in
love with this Hilton character. Or at least you were when you were
alive. And you don’t want to see him get in trouble.†It
didn’t take a genius to read that much into Madeline’s words,
so really, she shouldn’t have greeted my statement with a snort
of contempt.
“In love? With
Hilton? You really haven’t been paying attention to a word I’ve
said, have you? Hilton is a big boy, he can take care of himself.
And he will. Believe me, you don’t become as successful or as
powerful as Hilton Gerard without learning to fine-tune your
self-preservation skills. When the net closes around the Gerard
Clinic, Hilton isn’t the one who’s going to be caught in
it.â€
“Dan?†The name
escaped past the sudden knot of anxiety that blocked my throat.
“You mean he’s mixed up in all this, too? No. Wait!†I
swallowed down my panic. “No way. There’s no way Dan would ever
do anything dishonest. Whatever your Doctor Gerard is up to, Dan
isn’t a part of it.â€
This time, my
loyalty to Dan didn’t impress Madeline. Her sour expression
pretty much summed up what she thought of me. “Don’t you get
it? It doesn’t matter if Danny knows what’s going on or not.
He’s getting funding from the clinic for that study he’s
conducting. Funding cuts or not, a whole lot of that money still
comes from the government, from Medicare and such. When the federal
authorities close in—â€
Two little
words—federal authorities—and my
panic was back in full force. The psychology-minded might have
called it conditioning. I attributed it to good old-fashioned been
there, done that. I was backing away even before I was aware that I
was moving.
“Oh no. No feds
for me. I’ve had enough of those guys for one
lifetime.â€
It wasn’t until
Madeline gave me a blank look that I realized that like it or not,
I owed her an explanation.
“My dad,†I
said, and damn, but I hated telling this story. “He was a plastic
surgeon. There was a little matter of Medicare fraud. Dad will be
in federal prison for at least another eight years.â€
It was the
Reader’s Digest Condensed version, of course. I’d purposely
left out all the stuff about how, thanks to Dad’s illegal doings,
our family had lost everything: the upscale house in the upscale
suburb, his bank accounts and investments, the people who’d
always said they were our friends. Mom didn’t wait around to
watch the Martin family go down in flames; she hightailed it to
Florida to hide from the shame. And me? Well, I’d been dumped by
the fiancé who had claimed he loved me more than my family’s
money, and instead of becoming a CCW (that’s country-club wife)
and working on my tan, on my backhand, or on completing what had
been shaping up to be a superior collection of Marc Jacobs
handbags, I was working as a tour guide in a cemetery.
Enough
said.
Fortunately,
Madeline didn’t bother with any sympathy. Fine by me, since I
wasn’t looking for any. Ever the logical scientist, she breezed
right on. “Then you understand the problem completely. I’ve
heard rumor that the FBI is nosing around the clinic, and if
that’s true, you know they’re going to uncover Hilton’s
wrongdoings. They’re not going to care that the money Danny is
using was filtered through Hilton. They’re going to see that
he’s spending government funds on a study that was never
approved. And then—â€
“Dan’s going to
join my dad as a guest of the government.â€
I didn’t like the
thought or the picture that popped into my mind—the one of Dan
behind bars. I swallowed hard and told my imagination to sit down
and shut up.
“We’re getting
ahead of ourselves here,†I told Madeline, forcing myself to
think like a detective, because that was better than giving in to
the panic. “We’ve got to look at the facts before we jump to
conclusions. What kind of study is Dan working on with Doctor
Gerard, anyway?â€
Madeline shrugged.
She didn’t like being out of the loop, and three years of being
dead pretty much assured that. “I don’t know all the details. I
do know it has something to do with brain waves. Whatever it is,
it’s not worth Danny risking his reputation. Or his
freedom.â€
I was so not going
to go there. That’s why I glommed on to the brain-wave part.
“So Dan really is a research scientist, right? I mean, the whole
thing about studying my brain and my aberrant behavior, that’s
legit?â€
She cocked her head.
“You didn’t think it was?â€
“I wasn’t sure.
I mean, I believed him at first because I met him in a hospital and
all, but then when he saved my life—â€
“Did he?â€
Madeline looked interested in spite of herself. “Danny’s a man
of many talents.â€
“And he believes
in ghosts.†I wasn’t sure if this was news to Madeline, but I
thought it only fair I share it. “He’s never come right out and
said it, but he’s hinted, you know? He knows what he’s talking
about. He knows you guys exist.â€
Her smile was
nothing short of beatific. “I told you, Danny thinks outside the
box. And you . . .†When she looked at me, the expression faded.
“You’re glad he was telling the truth, aren’t you? About the
brain studies?â€
I was, and I
wasn’t ashamed to admit it.
“Then you want to
help him?â€
I groaned. “Of
course I don’t want to see anything bad happen to Dan. But I
can’t believe he’s mixed up in Doctor Gerard’s fraud scheme.
Really. Dan isn’t the type.â€
“You haven’t
been listening.†Madeline stalked away, whirled around, and came
back at me. “It doesn’t matter if he knows what’s going on.
Hilton’s going to get caught, and when he does, Danny’s going
down with him. His career will be over. His life will be ruined.
You’re the only one who can stop it, Pepper. You’ve got to help
him.â€
“But—â€
Madeline’s voice
simmered with anger. “You just told me Danny saved your life, and
now you’re going to let him spend the best years of his life in
jail?â€
“No. I mean, I
don’t want to. It’s just that . . .†I collected my thoughts.
“I just can’t believe—â€
“You don’t
believe Danny’s involved? Well, I can prove it. He and Doctor
Gerard are having dinner tonight at Piece, the brewery over on West
North Avenue.†Madeline shimmered around the edges. She faded
like a bad TV picture. “Go there.†Her voice faded, too, until
it didn’t sound as if it was coming from her at all. It was in
the air all around me. And in the icy wind that ducked under my
collar and shivered down my back. “You’ll see.â€
“But . . .†By
the time I made a move to close in on her, she was already gone.
“What am I going to say to him?†I asked anyway. “How am I
going to explain that I know that Doctor Gerard is skimming the
clinic’s money?â€
My only answer was
the sound of the wind that blew across the headstones around
me.
“Damn,†I
grumbled, and I turned back toward the Palmer
memorial.
That’s when I
realized the tour group—and the tour bus—had already moved on
to another part of the cemetery.
And didn’t it just
figure? It started to snow.